Not one is righteous.

things happen. things that shouldn't.
when they do.. i fall and my knees and cry out.. God. i'm imperfect.
I'm still a sinner..
there are times when a sin leads to more sin because the first sin dosn't allow us to come to terms with the fact that Jesus is more than able to forgive them.
I believe there are two ways of looking at sin.
One is.. if u can't beat it.. just do it..
the other one is.. i know i can't do it.. but Jesus already died for my sins hence my only option is to come back to Jesus's feet and ask Him to forgive us and take us back into His arms.

Of all the lies in the world.. i believe the one that almost everyone is deceived most by.. is the fact that they aren't that sinful.. that they are ok.

Some may say.. i do good deeds. others say.. i've been leading a good and moral life. Hence i should go to heaven.
however.. when we examine these statements.. we have to realize this.. who has the ultimate right to say what is good or bad? when we look at the world.. we realize firstly that.. what u think is good may not be what i think is good. so who are you to say that my life is sinful?
What right do Christians have to say that others have sinned and that others need God? Well.. they don't. but they only say that all have sinned because of what is said in the bible.

Now.. the problem most people have with Christianity is this.. Christianity perhaps out of all the other religions, is the only religion which has a firm stand on what is right and wrong and what u need to do to go to heaven. The bible more than any other religion states clearly in black and white the laws that almost every successful country's law is based on.. The basic human rights, how to decide penalties for certain crimes.. The bible is perhaps the most instructive book on what is right and what is wrong. And it is the most definitive religion about how we can go to heaven and what we need to go to heaven because the God who wrote these laws is a just God. How can a just God not tell people plainly and simply what needs to be done to go to Heaven? To quote an example from Andy Stanley.
Imagine a classroom scenario and the teacher is in front of the class.. enters the class.. and says "good morning.. next week we will have a test. U either pass or fail. That's all. class dismissed."
imagine how bewildered these poor children will be. They don't know what to study for.. they dont' know how to prepare for this test.. how can they pass if they do not know what they are being tested about??

but virtually every religion other than Christianity has absurd rules and criteria for getting to heaven. Rules that only benefit a certain group in the society while excluding the lower social castes. Jesus is a just God. Because He makes it so clear and so simple that the way to heaven is through Him. To believe in Jesus and what He has done on the cross for our sins.

Not one is righteous.
Not one is without sin.
Yet.. in God's eyes.. only the sinless can enter heaven..
not one sin can God tolerate in heaven.
Hence.. by default all of us have no right to be in heaven.. unless this heaven is something we imagine.. where any tom dick or harry can simply go into heaven. What an unjust heaven that would be.

No one can fully comprehend the extent of our sin and the extent of God's mercy to the human race. It is a mystery that only God chooses to reveal. But not many are even interested to know this mystery of the sinister nature of sin. how it slowly erases all hint of Godliness in us.

Only one perfect can die for someone imperfect..

God.. give me more insight. i need more mercy.

ask me why i'm a Christian.
i'll tell you. God is real.
Ask me how i know?
i'll tell you stories.
Ask me again how i know they point to God.
i'll tell you that the bible said so.
Ask me.. how did i become like this.
i'll tell you God loves me so much.

failed my driving

i failed my driving.
nothing much to lament about.. cept that it was raining.. and i didn't really have luck on my side. traffic was heavy.. people were squeezing in and out.. the tester couldn't take it.. first try.. at driving. fail.

well i was really disappointed initially. and i was really asking God. why??
the instructor was nice in the end.. he bothered to explain why i didn't pass. well.. end of the day.. i couldn't hear much of what he was saying.. the fail word on my paper was screaming out at me. " FAIL!!! "

thoughts were going through my head ' what would people say?? haha richard u failed ure driving! "
Eve probably would be gloating.. cuz she got her driving on her first try. and i can think of a few more people who have gotten a pass for their first driving
yeah.. i really thought i would be able to pass this driving test..
i mean if the rest could why not i?
i had thoughts of inferiority. thoughts that.. Richard.. u failed.
somehow... the results came out too fast for me to react to it.
i was asking God.. why?
i was looking forward to driving the family for breakfast in the morning. but it seems that it wasn't God's timing for me.
i was asking why God?
I kina secretly prided myself that i could learn fast and pass on my first try.
but i felt really humbled.
for a while.. i felt a pain i havn't experienced in a very long while.. the pain of longing for victory but failing. at that point.. i really felt like.. man.. i wana go home and mope and shut the door.. shut everyone out...
i didn't have any heart to go down to help the crusaders with the stamping of the 4000 publicity mailrun for the Crusade FOC.
But then i decided in my heart..
no matter.. what.. in all places,, in all circumstances that i would praise God. That i would honor my promise to Yong Chean to go down to help out whether i felt like it or not. It was probably like a scene out of a korean drama..
the weather was grey sky.. the rain was rattling on like a dripping tap. my heart was exactly that way.. full of regret that refused to be shaken off.

i read the bible and chanced upon the psalms.. breezed through it.. didn't really help.. yup.. went to sch.. eventually.. my toes.. filled with water.. socks... wet.. i just stepped into a puddle of water.. and my shoes were soaked.. i was feeling wonderful. started listening to a sermon about the destructive nature of sound. it was really interesting to know that sound actually affected physical matter.. through resonance. and there were experiments where human organs exploded because the sound that they used was the same frequency as the organs.. the only reason why it wasn't developed as a weapon is because it also killed the person who activated the weapon.. it was omni directional and couldn't be channeled.
i thought that was really interesting too..
slowly.. i forgot how hard up i was over the whole thing. Eve msged me and asked me how my results were. she was really comforting too :) yeah :) i miss her though. yup. she's one of those women who really captivate me in a way no other has. Her character.. is alive. anyways.. yup.
for a while.. i couldn't look at cars on the road and not think about how i failed my driving..
never thought failure could hit me that hard.. after all ... i'm quite used to it.
but anyways..
yup went down to help with the crusade stuff.. and .. felt really much better after that.. somehow.. :) just the presence of other people made me better. :)Didn't feel like my whole world was crumbling. :)
anyways..
i'm deciding to start a bible study regime.. attempting to wake up every morning to do a bible study. :) been reading RA torrey. Gift from my mom. awesome book. Really so much stuff to learn. :)

Anyhows.. :) yup
this holiday has really been a heck of a blast. so busy that i have barely space to breathe!!!

Yet another video upload. wonder wall. just monkeying around with the new wireless headphones that is also a mic.. so u can now hear me singing louder

awesome week

my past few weeks were awesome.
for one, i got my paycheck 2 weeks ago..
i got 200 bucks for my ippt silver.. (far cry from last year)
i got my birthday presents..
went for a wonderful church camp.. celelbrated my bdae with my church pple.. celebrated my birthday in singapore before i went for church camp with my family..
got so many b'dae wishes on face book...
my dad gave me money to learn driving...
i'm going to get my seba skates this fri..
things are looking great.. never been better! :)

Just came back from malaysia with my fam .. yesterday..
and well.. God is certainly moving in my family..
my mom's really being touched by God and is infecting my dad and my aunt in m'sia..
funny thing is.. sometimes i feel uncomfortable and even .. wary.. and i guess that should be normal.. because suddenly what i'm reading about in books, i'm seeing happening slowly in my family..

i passed my driving theory.. :) hooray! started studying 1 week b4.. :) and i was the 5th fastest guy to get out of the exam room. !:) LOL i take pride in these kinda stuff.. :) yeah..

life is looking good.

i'm contented and blessed. :)

and all i can do now.. is uplift everyone of these blessing to God. cuz he's my provider..
i've hardly done anything to earn so much of these blessings.. and i'm thankful. so thankful :) :>

God cares. so much that you can't ignore him.

My dad's probably feeling that too :)

i went to church in malaysia for the first time with my mom and dad.. .. and it was one of the most special feelings.. to have my parents sitting and listening to what was spoken on the pulpit..
in my heart.. i kept telling myself.. to keep these memories in my heart.. treasure and savour everyone of these moments.. that i got to spend with my loving parents..
love them sooo very much..

Eve.. of course i didn't forget you too ... i miss you so much..
miss touching your hand.. miss argueing with u.. miss hanging out and slacking and eating.. and feeling like lazy pigs.. miss your kisses. :>
there isn't anyone i'd rather be with than with u :) love u

beatboxing..

finally.. i have something decent to blog about that is to me enthralling.
BEAT BOXING>. it started with some random beatbox video that i decided to watch for fun..
it started with ROxOrloops... who won the belgium beatboxing championships because he could do an echo.. if ure wondering what that is.. Dig THis VIDEO DAWG! (sorry.. just had to type that out for my own amusement)

aweSOME!..
and u know.. the thing that really got me hooked for a while watching the beatboxers is the fact that singapore also has a beatboxer who is recognized world wide for his beatboxing technique.. .. This guy called darhni.. MAXIMUM RESPECT!