Chronicles of a christian.

yup.. thats me! :) a Christian.

i just came back from a reunion dinner with my crusade friends.
:)
its interesting to see new faces. quite a delight actually. but with the new faces come a certain awkwardness and unsureness of how to react. i for one want to just go up and say hi. yet.. there's this other part that just looks out for some familiar face to talk to like David or Joel or Janice or Eudora or Michelle or Sam or Jo or Rudy .. basically the more senior crusaders. << that probably is the number one causes for segregation within the church as a body. the fear of just saying hi to someone you don't know. amazing ya? how something so seemingly harmless has such big implications.
there was this group of exchange students whom we met from Iowa..acctually i didnt' really meet them.. i just saw them.. didn't say hi or nothing..
it was weird. how i wanted to say hi, but i didn't want to. and i could run this in my head over and over again.. but at the end of the day.. hmmm i guess i just want to know them and find out about these angmohs who have so rarely popped by for a crusade event. i was happy that today was such a boisterous day.so many people turned up for the crusade new year dinner.

but this incident kinda strikes me in an unexpected way..

kinda gave me a better idea about my introverted self.

i find myself weird sometimes.. how one moment i could be so high.. and the next.. feel like.. a worm. wanting to hide in the soil.
all these happening within the span of just minutes.

anyways, aside from that, i talked to vic today. was delighted to see him at SDE block after his crusade LM. yeah. its kinda cool cuz somehow, now, when i see him, i see someone who's growing from the pain he's experienced. in fact i feel more comfortable talking to him than i ever did.

Its wonderful when you have a friend. :)

:) and may i add, a friend from God.

welll..i think i should sleep. i'm not exactly the most fun person to be around with now. i've been sleep deprived. GIMME SLEEP! :)

i think i behave different when i don't get my sleep.

oh.. this thought just came into my head. sometimes, live just feels much more free when you don't give too much of a damn about your self image.